of normally sunshiney happy posts
About how life sometimes sucks.
Yesterday was our ninth wedding anniversary.
(That part doesn't suck, just in case you were wondering.)
My husband was out of town on business.
One of the kids woke me up at 3am.
My husband was supposed to be in town by 11am so we could go to lunch together, sans kids, for our anniversary.
His flight was canceled.
The dog wasn't doing so well.
I began to wonder if the dog was going to make it.
My husband did come home yesterday afternoon, thank goodness.
The kids were not acting their best.
We had some homework issues that made me want to pull my hair out.
The dog continued to get worse.
My husband took the dog to the vet prepared for the worst, but was reassured by some young veterinarian that our dog would probably be feeling better in a few days. So he returned home with the dog.
I didn't know if I could make it much longer having to see our dog like that.
All day long I had already been on pins and needles over the dog.
Ten margaritas couldn't have calmed me down.
We went to dinner with the kids, not exactly what we had in mind for our anniversary.
But oh well, what is a ninth wedding anniversary without some good ol' fashioned reality thrown in, right?
We even drove the kids past our wedding venue on the way home from dinner. Who would've thought we'd end up living two blocks away from where we were married?
Throughout the night the dog continued downhill.
I couldn't sleep too well, aware of the inevitable.
This morning the kids (again) were not their best.
This morning more homework issues were discovered.
This morning attitudes were adjusted.
Unfortunately mine was not one of them.
This morning my husband had to take our beloved dog in to be put to sleep.
You'd think that the people (us) that had five dogs at once would be used to the loss of a dog since we just went through this approximately two years ago, but no. It doesn't get any easier. We're true animal people. You know the type -- even after having kids (of the human variety), our furry children never took much of a backseat. Think about it -- pets can't talk back, throw tantrums, etc. There's a lot of unconditional love going on when pets are involved, at least in our house. So I've done my fair share of crying already this morning. And it's going to take awhile to get used to the empty feelings in the house.
Tomorrow I have no doubt I will be back to my normal, glass-always-half-full mentality, pushing the rose-colored glasses I love back up on my nose. But today, I just need to vent.
And probably cry quite a bit more.
Thanks for letting me get that out.